The Ravings of a Crazy Wannabe Warrior Princess

amarra_jade @ 2010-01-06T00:03:00

2010-01-06T05:03:18Z

I must be crazy for doing this because I've never written a Merlin fanfic (or any fanfic, apart from one pitiful little Legend of the Seeker drabble), but I NEED to write, and this might help me recover my motivation.

Sign-ups on now for the thefuturequeen's LAS/LIMS competition!

Fandom Meme

2010-01-05T02:44:45Z

Another meme snagged from rowan_d:

Ask me one fandom-related question in the comments. This can be fandom specific, general, or about fandom/lj stuff/fic writing/etc. in general. Favorite character, favorite moment, unpopular opinion, something about a fic of mine... whatever. Wackiness encouraged.

amarra_jade @ 2009-12-31T15:24:00

2009-12-31T20:24:19Z

My parents got divorced when I was 6. My mom had an affair (actually several affairs, according to my dad) which resulted in her getting pregnant with my sister. Naturally, the only memories I have of them together are from when they were fighting. For some reason, it never occurred to me to wonder what they were like when they were happy and in love -- until my brother and I went to Texas to visit Dad this past summer. While we were driving to his house, Dad and I somehow got to talking about the divorce, and he broke down in tears. I realized that if he was still hurting that much 15 years after the fact, they must have loved each other at some point.

Imagine my surprise last night, when I was visiting my paternal grandparents and my grandmother gave me a bag of letters Mom wrote to Dad while she was in college and he was in the marines, saying Dad wanted me to have them so I'd know that they did, indeed, love each other at one point. I read a few of them, and...wow. I just can't get my head around the fact that my mother is the same person as the lovesick 19-year-old who wrote those letters. They're extremely mushy and full of cliched phrases like "I'll love you forever" and "I'll never leave you." Although that obviously turned out not to be true, I like to think she meant it at the time she wrote it. It's better than seeing her as a whore who broke my father's heart. I think that to a degree, my grandparents still see her that way. My grandmother told me that when they were in the process of getting divorced, Mom said she knew the day they got married that she was making a mistake. She started crying, and my grandfather added that he knew Dad was making a mistake in marrying her.

But I know there are two sides to every story, so it can't have been all Mom's fault, even though it would be so easy to believe it was. I doubt I'll ever know the whole story.

Arthur/Gwen prompt table

2009-12-30T22:10:33Z

I've decided to write 10 Arthur/Gwen fanfics for 10iloveyou. I'm a little rusty at coming up with my own story ideas, so A/G shippers on my f-list, you're welcome to prompt me. Just tell me what you want and don't want and I'll do my best to complete your request.

1.	Trust	6.	Passion
2.	Truth	7.	Duty
3.	Rules	8.	Forgiveness
4.	Loss	9.	Betrayal
5.	Loyalty	10.	Your choice

I'm 21 but I act 16 1/2

2009-12-29T04:43:14Z

Another meme snagged from rowan_d

- Repost this with the subject as: I'm (how old you are) but I act (what you got on the test)

[] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[x] You own a credit card
[] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You've done your own laundry
[x] You can vote in an election
[/] You can cook for yourself (sort of...do ramen noodles count?)
[] You think politics are interesting

TOTAL SO FAR: 3 1/2

[x] You show up for school late a lot
[x] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket
[] You've never gotten a detention
[] You have forgotten your own birthday
[x] You like to take walks by yourself
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up
[] You drink caffeine at least once a week

TOTAL SO FAR: 7 1/2

[x] You know how to do the dishes
[x] You can count to 10 in another language
[] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[] You can mow the lawn
[] You study even when you don't have to
[] You have hand washed a car before

TOTAL SO FAR: 9 1/2

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up
[] The people at Starbucks know your usual
[] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type pretty quickly

TOTAL SO FAR: 12 1/2

[] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[] You have been to a Tupperware party
[] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[] You have more bills than you can pay
[x] You have been to the beach
[x] You use the internet every day
[x] You have been outside of (your home country) 3 or more times.
[x] You make your bed in the morning

TOTAL: 16 1/2

Writer's Block: Tonight, tonight

2009-12-24T18:57:56Z

If you celebrate Christmas, what will you do this evening? If you don't, will you still do something festive or is it just another night?

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Eating a big family dinner, going to church, then coming back and eating dessert and exchanging gifts, and finally putting milk and cookies out for Santa and reading 'Twas the Night Before Christmas with my mom, stepdad and sister.

I hope everyone has a great Christmas (or, if you don't celebrate it, a great Friday)! Since taliatoennien posted one of her favorite Christmas songs, I thought I'd post one of mine. I no longer consider myself a Christian, but this simple yet powerful song never fails to move me.

Said the night wind to the little lamb
Do you see what I see
Way up in the sky little lamb
Do you see what I see
A star, a star
Dancing in the night
With a tail as big as a kite
With a tail as big as a kite

Said the little lamb to the shepherd boy
Do you hear what I hear
Ringing through the sky shepherd boy
Do you hear what I hear
A song, a song
High above the tree
With a voice as big as the sea
With a voice as big as the sea

Said the shepherd boy to the mighty king
Do you know what I know
In your palace wall mighty king
Do you know what I know
A child, a child
Shivers in the cold
Let us bring him silver and gold
Let us bring him silver and gold

Said the king to the people everywhere
Listen to what I say
Pray for peace people everywhere
Listen to what I say
The child, the child
Sleeping in the night
He will bring us goodness and light
He will bring us goodness and light

The child, the child
Sleeping in the night
He will bring us goodness and light

Robin Hood personality quiz

2009-12-24T04:00:28Z

Writer's Block: Like mobile for chocolate

2009-12-23T19:45:44Z

If you had to give up either chocolate or your mobile phone forever, which would you sacrifice?

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Easy: Mobile phone. I hate talking on the phone, so giving it up would be no problem for me. Chocolate, on the other hand, I could never give up. It's my reason for living (well, one of them).

'Ships Meme

2009-12-19T01:58:10Z

Snagged from rowan_d

If you want to play, fill in your pairings of choice before you look at the questions.

6 I love:

#1. Xena/Ares (Xena: Warrior Princess)
#2. Arthur/Gwen (Merlin)
#3. House/Cuddy (House)
#4. Richard/Kahlan (Legend of the Seeker)
#5. Mick/Beth (Moonlight)
#6. Cox/Jordan (Scrubs)

3 I like:

#7. JD/Elliot (Scrubs)
#8. Puck/Quinn (Glee)
#9. Puck/Rachel (Glee)

3 I never liked:

#10. House/Cameron (House)
#11. Finn/Rachel (Glee)
#12. Arthur/Morgana (Merlin)

2 that piqued my interest:

#13. Xena/Callisto (Xena: Warrior Princess)
#14. Kahlan/Cara (Legend of the Seeker)

1. Why do you dislike #11 (Finn/Rachel)?
I just never saw any chemistry there. They're better off as friends IMO.

2. Who do you know that ships #9 (Puck/Rachel)?
I don't think anyone on my F-list even watches Glee.

3. What would be your ideal scenario for couple #3 (House/Cuddy)?
I'd want them to have an open, honest talk about their feelings for each other, followed by hot smexing (FOR REAL, please).

4. What is your favorite moment for #1 (Xena/Ares)?
Gah, way too many. I guess I'll say the final scene of Coming Home. I love how relaxed they are with each other after everything that happens. The hand-holding, the kiss, the sadness in her eyes when she tells him he's "bad for her," the way she just smiles when he says, "So you're saying there is a chance?" *melts* If that isn't proof of her feelings for him, I don't know what is.

5. How long have you been following couple #6 (Cox/Jordan)?
About three years, I think (though, sadly, the real Scrubs has ended D:).

6. What's the story with #8 (Puck/Quinn)?
They're two not-so-nice people with an obvious soft spot for each other. I love how hard Puck tries to prove himself to Quinn, and Quinn seems to be at her happiest when she's around Puck. Their food fight was adorable.

7. Which ship do you prefer--#2 (Arthur/Gwen) or #4 (Richard/Kahlan)?
Arthur/Gwen, hands down. They're very similar (both are forbidden romances), but I just prefer Arthur and Gwen as characters to Richard and Kahlan, and I think they've grown more from their relationship than R/K have. When we first meet Arthur, he's extremely arrogant, but he slowly becomes more humble and learns to put others' needs before his own, and Gwen helps him with that quite a bit. By contrast, Gwen is pretty shy and passive at first, but she slowly becomes more assertive, and Arthur helps her with that -- not as much as she helps him, but still, I think they bring out the best in each other.

8. You have the power to make one ship non-existent. Choose from #10 (House/Cameron) or #12 (Arthur/Morgana).
I sort of want to say Arthur/Morgana because then there would be a lot less people hating on Arthur/Gwen, but I have to go with House/Cameron. Cameron's attraction to House always seemed very one-sided to me, and it was mostly based on the fact that he was "damaged" and she wanted to fix him. Not exactly a healthy relationship. Also, I never saw any chemistry between them, and I just couldn't get past the age difference.

9. What interests you about #14 (Kahlan/Cara)?
There's so much tension between them you could cut it with a knife. And they're both HOT -- I'm mostly straight, but I'd jump the fence for either of them. :P

10. What's a song that reminds you of #1 (Xena/Ares)?
"I Hate You Then I Love You" by Celine Dion and Luciano Paverotti. The title says it all. :D

11. Which of these ships do you love the most right now?
Arthur/Gwen. :D

12. Which do you dislike the most?
House/Cameron. See #8.

13. If you could have any of these pairings double date, who would they be?
Xena/Ares and House/Cuddy. OMG. Either of these pairings alone is hot enough to make me spontaneously combust, so I can't even imagine what the four of them together would do. Plus, the banter they'd exchange would be epic.

14. Have #2 (Arthur/Gwen) kissed yet? Elaborate if yes.
YES! Twice, in fact. :D

#1

#2

15. Did #4 (Richard/Kahlan) have a happy ending, or is one likely?
I'm sure they'll be together eventually, but the writers seem to want to keep them apart as long as possible.

16. What would make you start shipping #14 (Kahlan/Cara)?
I'm pretty devoted to Richard/Kahlan, but if Kahlan started making out with Cara, I might have to convert. :P She never would, though. Her heart belongs to Richard.

17. If only one could happen, which would you prefer--#7 (JD/Elliot) or #13 (Xena/Callisto)?
JD/Elliot. They're meant for each other. Xena/Callisto would be interesting, but way too destructive (plus, I'm too devoted to Xena/Ares).

18. You have the power to decide the fate of #5 (Mick/Beth).
Mick turns Beth into a vampire and they live happily ever after. :D

WTF is wrong with me?

2009-11-25T23:22:29Z

When a friend, whom I'll call Ethel, Natalie and I were driving to the mall today, we started talking about my brother's friend Mike, who used to have a big crush on Ethel and who's been a bad influence on my brother lately. The conversation went something like this:

Ethel: You know how everyone thought Mike and I were going to get married? I wonder what your Mom would think now, since she basically hates him.
Natalie: Why does Mom hate Mike?
Me: Because she thinks it's Mike's fault that --
Ethel: Don't tell her. Your mom doesn't want her to know.
Me: (annoyed) Why?
Ethel: Because she doesn't need to.
Me: I don't care. I'm going to tell her. Mom thinks it's Mike's fault that Nick's (my brother) doing drugs.
Ethel: Your mom didn't want her to know! Now it's on your ass when she finds out you told her.
Me: Don't tell me what to do! I'll tell her if I want to!
Natalie: I didn't even hear what you said.
Ethel: Your mom thinks it's Mike's fault that Nick's been drinking and partying so much.
Me: (sarcastically) Oh, that's so much better than what I said.
Ethel: Yeah, it is.
Me: No, it isn't.
Ethel: Whatever, Aimee. You need to be more mature about this.
Me: OMG YOU BIG MEANIE! *cries*

...well, I didn't say "OMG YOU BIG MEANIE!," but I did cry. A lot. And I made Ethel feel guilty for trying to stop me from telling my little sister something that would probably break her heart. *headdesk* I am 21 fucking years old. I am a GROWN WOMAN. I've worked so hard to become a stronger person these past few years, but the fact that I still can't seem to kick the habit of throwing extremely embarrassing temper tantrums when I don't get my way makes it all seem pointless. I hate myself for making everyone feel like they have to tiptoe around my fragile little feelings. That's not the kind of person I want to be. But unfortunately, it's the kind of person I am, and it seems there's nothing I can do to change that. *sigh*

New rules for NaNoWriMo

2009-11-09T03:29:59Z

1. Write only using Write or Die.
2. Keep the screen covered while writing so I'm not tempted to correct/rewrite anything.
3. No re-reading.

It's Day 8, and my current word count is a whopping 3,014. I'm over 10K behind. My motivation is at an all-time low. I'm not giving up, though. I did it once, and if I follow these rules (and avoid the NaNo website like the plague so everyone else's insanely high word counts don't make me want to kill myself), I can do it again.

And now for something FUN! Yay!

1. What did you want to be when you grew up, when you were little, and how has that changed?

I think I've always known on some level that I wanted to be a writer, but I've played with a few other possibilities. Broadway star was my favorite, but after getting cast in the chorus in all my school musicals, I had to accept that it wasn't meant to be. I still like to pretend I'm a Broadway star at home, though (good thing I live alone, lol). I also thought about being a vet because I love animals, but I knew I couldn't handle being around sick/injured animals all day. When I was a freshman in high school, my best friend showed me part of the novel she was working on, and I loved it so much that I asked to co-write it with her. Since then, I haven't been able to imagine myself doing anything but writing.

2. What are you looking forward to the most about the upcoming Xena convention? (And bonus question, do you have any favorite snacks to stock for the hotel room? :P Always looking for details.)

Meeting my fellow XOCers, of course! And as for snacks, I have a huge sweet tooth. Give me chocolate and I'll be your best friend forever.

3. What first drew you to Xena: Warrior Princess?

Ooh, difficult question. I don't remember much about my first experience with the show because I was only 7-8, but I know the episode was Return of Callisto. I think I liked it right away just because of the "chicks who kick butt" factor, but what made me a fan forever was the "Teach me!" scene. Even though I was too young to fully understand it, the raw emotion just blew me away -- Gabrielle overcome with rage, Xena stern and cold, but obviously devastated by Gabrielle's pain. It really made me sympathize with both characters and want to get to know them, and I think it was also what made me want to learn the rest of their story after not watching the show for years.

4. Out of all the scenes that you've written, which have been the most fun and why?

For my NaNo or in general? As you can probably tell, my NaNo has been anything but fun so far. It's been complete mental agony. The story is dry, boring, and severely lacking in depth and passion, like everything else I've written lately. I don't think I've really had fun writing anything since high school, when my best friend and I were working on the aforementioned novel.

A little background info on the novel: It's called The Protectress. The hero is a teenage girl named Alexia. The villain is the Keeper, a really evil dude who wants to kill Alexia to avenge the death of his lover, whose soul now inhabits Alexia's body. He killed a dragon breeder, enslaved his dragons, and started using them to wreak havoc on the world. To save the world, Alexia has to capture and tame all the dragons with the help of her immortal mentor/love interest, Skylar.

I thought it was ridiculous when Ashley (my best friend) first told me about it, but when she gave me part of it to read, I was absolutely fascinated. Co-writing it with her was amazing. It was like we were rulers of a secret world that no one else knew about. We didn't obsess about the quality of the writing -- in fact, a lot of the time, it was nothing more than a contest to see which one of us could annoy the other one more. She would try to annoy me by writing the darkest, angstiest scene she could come up with, and I would try to annoy her by writing the sweetest, fluffiest scene I could come up with. These days, I'm probably more fond of darkness and angst than I am of sweetness and fluff, but back then, our battles were a blast.

5. Out of all the characters you've created, which has been the most fun and why?

I guess I can't use any of the characters from The Protectress, since Ashley created them, not me. I hated last year's NaNo slightly less than I'm hating this year's, so I'll go with last year's MC, Kenza. First of all, her name is awesome -- I got it from a fantasy name generator and instantly fell in love with it. As for her personality, she starts off as an immature, self-absorbed, shallow, rude, snarky brat, but gradually transforms into a more loving and generous person and blah blah blah. The one thing I enjoyed about writing the story was coming up with bitchy things for her to say. I didn't put as much effort into her character development as I could have, but I think she has the potential to be a great character, and I'll come back to her someday.

I'm going!!!!!!!!!!

2009-10-28T04:21:16Z

I'M GOING TO THE 2010 XENA CONVENTION!!!!!

I was prepared to pay $424.90 to either fly down on Thursday afternoon and come back Sunday evening or fly down on Friday morning and come back Monday morning. Instead, I'm paying $254.40 to fly down on Thursday evening and come back Monday morning. I won't have to get up insanely early to leave, I'll have a ride, so I won't have to walk or take a cab, I won't miss too many classes, I won't miss any con events, and I (hopefully) won't be too jet-lagged when I get back. Even though I'm an agnostic with atheist leanings, I feel compelled to thank the Lord Almighty for AirTran Airways and their awesomely low ticket prices, and for Nathan, the kind and generous soul who offered to drive me to the airport.

The moment I finished booking my flight, this surreal feeling came over me. After two years of fighting with my mom and reading everyone's convention reports at the XOC with extreme jealousy, I'm finally GOING. This is going to be the experience of a lifetime, I have no doubt. I can't wait to meet all my fellow XOCers, especially ladykate63 and taliatoennien, who's going to be my roomie. :D

Natalie pre-homecoming

2009-10-25T20:43:29Z

Aww, my baby sister's growing up so fast.

amarra_jade @ 2009-10-09T00:56:00

2009-10-09T04:59:23Z

Dear God, if you exist, strike me dead here and now. I'm a monster and I deserve to burn in Hell.

Disney Princess meme!

2009-10-04T06:12:03Z

Snagged from taliatoennien
Cinderella:

One of your parents is dead
You are expected to do a lot of chores
You love to dress up
You love animals
You are waiting patiently for your Prince Charming
Your mom is really strict
You have sisters who seem kind of jealous of you
You’re afraid to speak your mind sometimes
You have left your shoes at a friend’s house before
You have blonde hair

TOTAL: 3

Belle:

You’ve kissed someone your friends didn’t like
You’ve been lost in the forest
You love to read
You are not shy at all, and not afraid to speak your mind
One of your family members is a bit weird (try all of them, lol)
You have done volunteer work
You have a wild imagination
You love to take care of people in need
You’ve rejected at least one person when they’ve asked you out

TOTAL: 6

Jasmine:

You are very clever
You’ve been with someone way different from you
You’re unique and different from everyone else
You’d never marry someone just because they were rich
You have set a lot of goals for yourself
You don’t have a lot of friends
You’re independent
You are wealthy
Your parents try to control your life

TOTAL: 4

Ariel:

Your parents expect a lot from you
You really try to follow the rules, but it’s hard for you
You’re a bit of a trouble maker
You’re the youngest in your family
You have a lot of sisters
You collect something
You have/had long hair
You have/had a pet fish
You’re extremely curious
You believe everything people tell you/you’re a bit gullible

TOTAL: 3

Snow White:

You know that you’re beautiful
Sometimes it seems like your mom is jealous of you
You’ve almost been killed
You have at least seven good friends
You’ve had food poisoning
You have/had short hair
You get along with almost everyone
All of your friends are different
You love to have a good time
You’re happier when you’re out of the house than in

TOTAL: 2

Mulan:

You can be a tomboy sometimes
People wish you could be a bit more girly
You’ve pretended to be someone you’re not
You’ve had a physical fight with someone
You have/had considered running away from home
Your parents try to plan your life out
A lot of your friends are boys
You sometimes find yourself in bad situations
You love your family so much that you’d do anything to protect them

TOTAL: 3

Aurora:

You live/have lived with someone other than your parents
You almost died at a very young age
You are gentle, loving, and/or thoughtful
You have a decent singing voice
You like to sleep in late on the weekends
You spend most of your time outside
You’re adopted
Pink is one of your favorite colors

TOTAL: 3

Pocahontas:

You love to walk around big cities
You are more spiritual than religious
You’ve been in an interracial relationship
One of your family members is dead
Your parents are very protective of you
Someone you know has been in war
You love nature
You have/had black hair
You would love to move somewhere exotic and beautiful
You’re very adventurous

TOTAL: 6

Most like: Tie - Belle and Pocahontas. I thought about bolding "You love to take care of people in need" to break the tie (since Belle is my favorite, after all), but I take care of myself more than anyone else, and I don't go out of my way to help people as often as I should.

Least like: Snow White.

Ideal Self Test

2009-09-09T23:56:19Z

Jung Ideal vs. Real Test

Introversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	33%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
Extroversion	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|	23%
Intuitive	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	63%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Sensing	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Feeling	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	50%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	46%
Thinking	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	60%
Judging	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	70%
	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	56%
Perceiving	\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|\|	36%
	\|\|\|\|	20%

ideal you |||||| real you ||||||

ideal type - ENTJ, real type - ISTJ

Take Free Jung Ideal vs. Real Test
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amarra_jade @ 2009-08-16T01:28:00

2009-08-16T05:34:17Z

I WILL regain my passion for writing. I WILL get lost in my own fictional worlds. I WILL hear my characters' voices in my head and freak everyone out when I talk to them. I WILL feel all the emotions my characters feel, and when other people read my work, they'll feel the same emotions. I WILL write great stories that will inspire others. I WILL be the writer I know I can be.

Calling all Legend of the Seeker fans!

2009-08-05T17:44:04Z

If you're a fan of the TV series Legend of the Seeker, check out legendland for an opportunity to get to know other fans and engage in some friendly competition. You will be placed on one of four teams: Team Richard, Team Kahlan, Team Denna (of which yours truly is a member), and Team Cara. Once you're assigned to a team, you can participate in all kinds of fun challenges: graphics, fanfic, trivia and more. Apply here to be assigned to a team, and tell them amarra_jade sent you!

It's official...

2009-07-04T05:15:29Z

I can finally say something I've been afraid to say, but have known deep down my entire life:

I don't believe in God.

Leastways not the Christian God.

What led me to this realization? Well, despite being raised in a devout Catholic household, I never felt any connection with God. After I finished high school, I gradually stopped going to church except on holidays. But I still wanted to believe in God, namely because if there was no God, it would mean that when I died, I'd simply cease to exist, and that thought terrified me.

In my second year of college, however, I experienced a crushing blow to what faith I had left. I took a religious studies class, and during our unit on Judaism, it suddenly occurred to me: If God is supposed to embody love and forgiveness, why would he slaughter all the first-born children in Egypt? I couldn't think of an answer. But eventually, I was able to brush it off because no one takes everything in the Bible literally; not even my mother, whose Catholic faith is an extremely important part of her life.

Recently, the question of God's existence started bugging me again. I thought understanding the atheist's perspective might help me decide what I believed (or didn't believe), so I checked out some atheist websites, and I happened to stumble across this one. What I read there shocked me, to say the least. Having never read the entire Bible, I was deeply disturbed to learn that the slaughter of the first-born children in Egypt was by no means the only instance of God behaving in an unloving, unforgiving manner.

I could just choose to ignore all the acts of murder, rape, slavery, etc. done in the name of God, but that begs the question: How much of the Bible can I ignore and still consider myself a true Christian? I'd have to ignore almost the entire Old Testament. If God is willing to kill 42 children for making fun of a bald guy, I have no doubt he'd be willing to condemn me to Hell for disregarding such a large part of his divine law.

My dad says it's better to believe than not to believe because if you believe and you're wrong, nothing happens to you, but if you don't believe and you're wrong, you go to Hell. Well, if the only way I can get into Heaven is to worship a God who condones murder, rape, and slavery, I'd rather go to Hell.

There's also the age old question of why, if God loves us, he still allows us to suffer. Most Christians say it's to test our faith. By that logic, Hitler and the terrorists responsible for the 9/11 disaster were right to kill millions of innocent people because they were simply doing what God wanted them to: Testing our faith. Remind me again why I'm supposed to make it my ultimate goal to spend eternity with this guy? Again, I'll take Hell. Frankly, it sounds much more appealing (as does nonexistence, although the thought of it still terrifies me).

To sum this up, I don't consider myself an atheist because I'm still open to the possibility of something existing beyond our universe, but I don't believe it's the Christian God, who's nothing more than an enormous contradiction.

Very cool personality test

2009-06-10T03:34:19Z

Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...

NBPC - The Daydreamer

Nature, Background, Big Picture, and Color

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on the hidden treasures of life (the background) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to ponder ideas and imagine the many possibilities of your life without worrying about the details or specifics. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.

The Perception Personality Types:

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blink Uh...really?!

2009-05-21T23:03:18Z

Your result for The What's Your Philosophy? Test...

Optimist

Optimists are a dying breed in this day and age. To the optimists, the world is a positive place. Everything is inherently good, and all things will work out in the end. They believe violence will one day be replaced with logic and reason, and that all religions can coexisist peacefully. These are the people who always see the glass half full, and believe that we live in the best possible world.

Famous optimists include: Gottfried Leibniz, William Godwin.

The opposite of Optimism is Skepticism.

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SWEET.

2009-05-13T21:12:54Z

Your result for The Harry Potter Husband Test...

Mrs. Lupin

Your perfect HP man is Remus Lupin.

You like a nice, kind guy with a bit of a fierce streak and you don't mind if he comes damaged. Sure, he may take some convincing since his self-esteem's so low, but once you win him over, you know he's yours for life. Unless of course he has an attack of "I'm not good enough" and runs away, but luckily he's also good at making friends who will push him back into line if necessary.

(Art by Gold-Seven http://gold-seven.deviantart.com/ Used with permission.)

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Writer's Block: You Don't Know Me

2009-05-03T18:34:18Z

Our friends don't always know us as well as they think, particularly when it comes to likes and dislikes. Which popular book, movie, band, food, TV show, etc. would your friends be surprised to hear that you don't like?

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OMG TWILIGHT. Well, I doubt anyone would be surprised...I've been very vocal about my Twihate since it started a few months ago. But I can't possibly say this enough, so here it is again:

I HATE TWILIGHT.

Most creative personality test I've ever seen

2009-04-29T19:53:11Z

http://www.typologycentral.com/forums/629100-post10.html

It's a Myers-Briggs-esque test that uses food dishes as the personality types. My result:

VNUC (vegetable, noodle, sUbtle, cold) - Green salad

Somewhat serious and crunchy, Green Salad personalities are very down to earth and know their roots. Green Salads are calm in a crisis and tend to be unflappable. They are stabilising influences in the work environment. However, if they are going to become stressed, this is most likely to occur in the morning when they are still waking up. Generally, what you see is what you get with this personality type.

Sooooo bored

2009-04-20T00:44:18Z

Your result for The Literary Character Test...

Elizabeth Bennet

Strong willed and always moral, Elizabeth is a smart girl who will stand for nothing out of conduct. Unwaveringly loyal to propriety, and always a lover of generousity, she can make the mistake of assuming the worst on someone because of their background. Even is she is quick to assume, she is willing to remedy, and will always reward the honorable actions of those around her.

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Your result for The In-Depth HP Personality Test...

Nymphadora Tonks

You're Tonks, you've got the ability to change your facial features at will, and you're part of the Order of the Phoenix. Even though you're one of the youngest in the Order you hold your own nicely, even if you did have some troubles passing parts of your Auror test.

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Your result for The How Well-Read Are You? Test...

Quite Bookish

Marvelous! You are quite bookish, my friend! I would probably have no problem at all starting and maintaining good conversation with you! My guess is that you like to read and you paid attention during English class. You understand that being solidly educated when it comes to literature is imperative to being a well-rounded individual. Right on. We need more people of your level out there.

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Your result for The What Disney Female are you Test...

Esmerelda

You are Esmerelda! Like her, you have a good sharp mind, and can look after yourself, no one could catch you if you didn't want to be caught! Although you can be a romantic, you wouldn't be fooled into a relationship that was bad for you, you'd rather be a bit suspicious of people until you know they are definately good. Despite hardship and bad circumstances, you can always be counted on to fight and not give in, to not lose hope. You take stregnth from religion or within rather than from family or your lover, and can exist quite happily on your own although you like being social too. You are one of the strongest disney heroines, witty, firey, passionate, strong willed, and nimble, making everyone want you, but getting your own way and doing your own thing.

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Your result for The Character Analysis Test...

Moralist

You have a high Morality score. That's both good and bad. It's good, because that means you're a decent human being. It's bad, because your other traits are less developed, and you might get in the way of yourself, and your success because of your high moral standard.

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Your result for The New Greek Goddess Archetype Test...

You are Artemis!

Artemis is driven to succeed, thriving in adventurous or unique situations. She sets her goals, and her ambition, determination, and perseverance lets her achieve them. Her competition sometimes intimidates others, but she is also widely admired. She is healthy, independent, believes in feminism, and needs little help to go after what she wants. On the other hand, she can be rebellious and isolate herself from relationships and emotions.

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Your result for The Mega Harry Potter Character Test...

Ron Weasley

You always try to help friends and stand up for what you believe is right. You aren't the most intelligent of the bunch, but you make up for this in other ways.

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Your result for What Kind of Pizza Eater Are You?...

The Pizza Geek

There are science geeks, science fiction geeks, history geeks and even sports geeks. You -- while you may also be any or all of the above -- are a pizza geek. You're well-versed in the history of pizza, the regional variations of pizza, the varieties of crust styles and topping options, or all of the above.

If you aren't sharing your next pizza with a fellow pizza geek, though, you may want to make sure they'll enjoy hearing selections from your vast trove of pizza trivia before you start geeking out.

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